I love you and I will never forgive me for saying these things to you, I didn’t meant to… I should have been there for you and stayed at your bed, even in the rough times. Best Friends should do that for each other. I just couldn’t get it, why you had to be this ill… You were and are my better half, and I know you are out there somewhere, but it is like someone ripped my heart out of my chest. There is a hole where my heart should be and Catrissa, I can’t forget about that day… a year has already passed, but I can’t realize it. I can barely breathe without you. I cried so much that week. I lost 20 kg. I am so sick and I just want the pain to stop. I will ever love you and I hope you forgive me. Rest in Peace … you were everything I had … Catrissa P. 5.10.2014… up there with god